pada jam 01.14pm adhi (sepupu arga) nyapa gue di msn
"sha, arga pingsan"
oh my god gue shocked, panik, kalut dan kaget bgtbgtan! sumpah gue gapercaya 10000000% tapi tetep aja gue takut.
hal yg bikin gue gapercaya adalah gue sblmnya chat sama arga dan berantem (lagi?) trus pas udh agak membaik, arga off. dan adhi lgsg ol dan memberi gue berita yg amat sangat menyerupai malaikat maut yg menghampiri diri gue buat ngambil nyawa gue. dan bisa aja itu cuma becandaan aja.
trus gue telfon si adhi, nanyain dia demi apa dia ngmng kalo arga pingsan dsb. gue sampe nangis, gue takut bgt. fisik arga emang lemah dan gue gamau dia sakit apalagi sampe pingsan gitu.
gue telfon2 hp nya arga juga gak diangkat. dan barulah gue bisa percaya kalo arga pingsan, oh god what's happening with him? is anything wrong? is it my faults?
shit (maaf lagi bahasanya) gue takut bgt gue liatin layar komputer gue dan gue liatin chat gue sm adhi apa ada info dari dia.
dan gue sempet ngobrol sbntr sama adhi, dia cerita semua ke gue. gue bilang gue gprnh bikin arga bahagia malah justru bikin dia marah sakit dan kesel, tapi adhi bilang
"tp lo pernah bikin dia bahagia"
"pas lo jenguk d r.s buktinya dia lgsg sembuh""pass d sency"
"dia sneng karna yg dia harapkan bkn kadonya tp elonya yg dtg"
"bagi arga lo itu kado special buat dia"
oh god! it was crushing my heart. then when i saw that words came from adhi, my tears rolled down my face. i was just regretting everything, my faults, my mistakes to him. i realized how much he loves me, and how much i need him. i was just crying. and i was afraid. i didnt want him sick again. and time goes by, i always asked adhi about arga like "dhi, arga gimana skrg?" and he answered "udah mendingan" uuuuh it made me relax. thanks god for everything. thanks for made him getting better than before. and i asked god, that i really am sorry for all my faults and my mistakes to him. i promised that i will make him always happy with me. and when adhi said that "arga is getting better" i sent arga a message. i asked him for apologize but i knew arga couldnt reply it because of he has no "pulsa" so i just continued chatting with adhi and honestly it made me more relax and relax because i could know about arga's condition immediately. and then, when i was writting this post, my phone vibrating and that vibrate is a sign that i've just got a new message. then i opened it and that message came from arga. he said that he forgives me, he asks for apologize and he loves me. oh god my tears just rolled down my face for twice.
arga, i really am sorry my dear. i promise i will make you always happy with me.
iloveyou~
marsha, 2.28pm