okay this post might have been such a waste but i think i worth it so see ya readers i want to sleep. bye. goodnight.
10:40 PM
okay im writing again here hope you wont be bored with this unnecessary things of mine. just watched fame dvd and i thought i would be great but in fact i didn't really get the climax which was supposed to be so tremendously thrilling. but i got the points which the director wanted audiences to get, yeah it is like a fame is totally not anything to your life, also we have to be thankful and grateful for what we've got without cutting of our passions to be the best in our lives. i don't know why, dealing with maturity is completely a hard thing to do and it often breaks me down each time i want to raise myself up (because there is no one left). life is also so unexpected for me. it really has its own surprises each second went by but the hard thing to deal is how do we get prepared for every surprises ahead of us? the answer will be different to each person, definitely. all i wanna say is also; it is hard for me to adapt with high school environment, really is and still. uh sometimes i just want to shut those mouths which keep shouting and babbling around talking about shits and stuffs. i just don't like it and yeah they have to know that they should be good to everyone, NOT to everyone they only know. ah i wish i could do stuffs i wanna do to them, life would be so good, indeed. i also hate someone or everyone who likes to steal their friend's friends. uuuh i wish i could slap or yell at them even once, i would be so proud of myself because one thing that they should have considered since centuries is "they are not as good as the think they are and there must be someone or somebody hates them because of their own behaviors" okay i know that true friend stabs you in the front, hell yeah i really know that but what can i do? i really don't wanna be a cower but back then again they just such have a spell to everyone so it could make them look cool or even gorgeous and fabulous or everything they want to be. also i really hate someone who will only act as a good buddy if they are in need of something their friends have. oh if killing people is legal, maybe they who do that thingy are the first ones i would like to kill. oh but no, i am not that sarcastic and this is just my emotion but about shits i hate, there are so true you could never imagine about how true it is. i wish they are wealthy enough to buy a mirror, really!!! they have to take off their masks and start to tell everyone who they really are.